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5 Life Tasks (Part 1) March 12, 2012

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As LUCK would have it, (refer back to my monthly update for March) a kindly soul came a long and put me on the rainbow to my pot of gold. ( I am going to stop the March, leprechaun, etc. references now because I am sure I will run out long before my post is finished).

I have been ruminating on two things since my last post, how to build my vision board and how to live up to my March post.

My Vision Board and March

Last year, I created a vision board. It was my first one ever and while quite beautiful (if i do say so myself) it served no real purpose except to decorate my wall for a whole year. I didn’t accomplish anything on my board. I remember gazing at it lovingly, tracing its cursive letters with my fingertips and sighing as I walked away wondering if and when those things would ever occur. As 2012 dawned upon me, I racked my brain as to how to delight my senses with another creative masterpiece  but the thoughts flitted away like butterflies on a hot summer day. I have been torturing myself since September 2011, forcing my mind to dwell on this gravely important project but my mind remained blank. In January, I gave up. I threw my hands in the air and I said there is no point, 2012 has started it is too late to do a vision board, yet again you have squandared away the time and you have nothing to show for it, what am I going to do with you! (yes quite often I speak to myself dramatically).

With March came awareness, (I wish I could say sleep too, but alas no its 3.30 AM and I am writing again). In March, I learned that I had created a vision board of possibilities. The graduation- yes possible but after 2014 cause I had to go back to school first, the family- yes possible but after I dealt with my present relationship status and began working on a new relationship, the prayer – yes possible as soon as I started saying it, relaxation – yes possible as soon as I started taking myself seriously and putting me first; I must admit I was stunned and I did feel a little stupid. I was even tempted to change the ‘1’ in 2011 to a ‘2’ and make the board 2012, but I knew I had to make my vision board new and alive for 2012. This weekend a thought tickled my brain and I felt a flutter in my heart and before I knew it I had started working on my 2012 vision board. Maybe I should call it a NOW board, cause everytime I look at it I should ask myself the question ‘ Which of these things are you working on NOW?’


My present lifestyle goes something like this home, work, home, work (repeat until close to insanity) church, NJ, home, work, home, work (repeat until close to insanity) do somthing wild like get ears pierced for the third time, home, work, (repeat until close to insanity) go on vacation, REPEAT…I am sure you get my drift… I have been wondering how to create balance. It is easy to be told how to do it, it is not easy to do it especially when the cycle of unhealthiness has become a habit. It becomes worse when the connections to reality are being held by the people on the other side of the computer or telephone. I love walking, sitting in the bookstore, reading in the park, lying on the beach, eating at a restaurant, but who want us to do everything by themself all the time or with strangers (meeting new people) or with people they only know on the surface? Some days I choose to be “bored” at home cause the people I know, the people who know me and understand my quirkiness are too far away to go out with me.

Anyway, so this little birdy told me, divide your life into these five life tasks






Give each, equal amounts of time. Prioritize each week or even each day.

I am working on a new name for my vision board, I am calling it either my NOW board or my PRESENT. I will know for sure when I am finished.

As I work on each Life Task, I will share more. If you have any thoughts, please share, you know I love to read them. They bolster my courage.


LUCK… March 7, 2012

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Talk about PROCRASTINATION, February finished before I finished writing my blog about love and I started on the 5th. Since this is the month of March and the 4 leaf clover, with luck I will finish this one before March ends.

For 2012 I am renaming February, HUH???, cause I am not sure when it started, what happened during February or when it ended. If anyone asks I can honestly tell them that for me January ended last week and then March started. February 2012 just didnot exist for me.

So I have decided I need to truly make the rest of this year count. My girlfriend and I talked about 2012 being our year. This is the third month and I am still missing my one and only resolution. I really havent gotten to the core of it yet.

I went searching for a four leaf clover design (yes! I am still thinking about getting a tattoo) and as I searched I did a little reading too. I found a short article that talked about the four leaves of the clover representing faith, hope, love, and luck. I am thinking that I may just have to make that symbol more prominent in my home. I am not concerned about the luck so much but definitely the principles of faith, hope and love.

Faith- believing in myself that I have the strength and the ability through God to do all that he has planned for me.

Hope- that my needs and wants for myself are in tune with God’s needs and wants for me and therefore things will happen as soon as I step up and start working on them

Love- taking care of me FIRST…creating a motto of self-love and as such using my new found desires and energy to reach out to others

Luck- Atlantic City HERE I COME!!! (lol…with faith, hope, and love- luck is GUARANTEED)

As the month of March races off to a healthy start, I dont want to look back and say, ‘BUT WAIT!!! IT’S JUNE! SUMMER IS STARTING AND I STILL HAVENT ACCOMPLISHED ANYTHING.’ I know its 2.15am here but since I can’t sleep I guess it wont hurt to get up and get a start on making March MAGNIFICENT.

One of the biggest things I have been hearing from my friends lately is ‘get out and go make some friends, get off of facebook, go do some fun things’, I am hearing you friends. I admit I havent been listening too well but I do hear you. Maybe I can work on one thing related to “getting out” this month, hmmm…

CONFESSION: Meeting people and socializing is SCARY! It involves opening a door to a room in my heart that barely gets used. A room that used to be the easiest to open and the hardest to close. A room where everything is now tinged with more sadness than joy. Most times I swear it is better to pass that room, that door, without  a glance than to turn the key and wonder at the possibilities. I hate closed doors, I want to throw these wide open and say ‘welcome’  but the consequence is usually an acute disappointment, the lingering whisper ‘why did you let this happen again’?